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I told that I have found peace with myself in a way, and that is true – but what is peace? Someone sent me an email and asked how I found peace and what I meant by it, what I defined as peace with myself.
I told you that I have found peace with myself in a way, and that is true – but what is peace? Someone sent me an email and asked how I found peace and what I meant by it, what I defined as peace with myself.
I wish I could have said it was a short answer, that I took a mountain hike to my happy place, and peace poured down from above😇. But I'm sorry, I wish it had been that simple, but here's the truth: I was on a long journey, and for a long time I was going the wrong way. So to explain and tell you how I finally managed to find what I interpret as peace, it's a longer story.
And when I started writing, it turned out to be a philosophical story, because it actually challenged me to answer that question to myself first, an answer that I actually thought I had found. But I found that just because I've found peace with myself, it didn't necessarily mean I figured out the why or the how.
So this turns out to be a story that surprise even myself as I wrote it, so thx for asking for it.
Ok where do I start–it's a kind of a filosofisk exercise, but I will give it a try.
I started googling the word peace, just to make sure I really understood the meaning of the word. I found that the phrase “Why Peace Is Always Now” Got the explanation for that, and my damaged, weird brain started spinning😁. Did I really find peace in this context?
This is what Google says about the phrase "Why peace is always now,":
"Peace is considered "always now" because it is a present-moment state of being, independent of external circumstances, and accessible when one stops resisting the reality of the current moment. It is not a future goal or a temporary truce, but a constant, inner, or situational state available immediately when one chooses to embrace the "now"."
Then I started writing my interpretation, my understanding, that leads to me clearly see my journey to peace within myself, and where I took a detour on the way.
I will go so far to say that most people are not searching for peace — they are postponing it.
They say:
Peace becomes something that is planned for later, as if it were an event waiting on life's calendar or the end of our lives. And because later never quite comes, peace always feels just out of reach.
This endless deferral creates a quiet exhaustion. We are constantly leaning forward — into solutions, explanations, outcomes — while missing the only place peace actually lives.
The truth is simpler, and harder, than we expect:
Peace is not waiting for you in the future.
Peace is not stored in the past.
Peace is available only in the present moment.
Peace will not find you.
Peace will not be given to you.
Peace is inside yourself.
This is not poetic language. It is an experiential reality that becomes unmistakable once it is seen.
The human mind is an extraordinary tool — but a terrible home. Particularly when it's somehow has been shaken around like mine🙃.
It was designed to analyze, remember, plan, and predict. It moves effortlessly through time, replaying the past and projecting into the future. This ability has helped humanity survive — but it comes at a cost.
The mind almost never rests where life is actually happening.
Instead, it lives in:
And because peace only exists in direct contact with life, the mind – when not controlled – becomes a factory of restlessness.
It's doesn't help either when you mind struggle to "fix" itself after a brain injury, where everything is chaos.
This is solved by many saying:
They are not failing at peace.
They are simply trying to find it in the wrong place.
I was there, trying to find peace where it has never been, looking in all the wrong places, searching for it without really knowing what it was.
When our attention is caught in 
the past or the future, something subtle happens: we abandon life.
Our body is here.
Our breath is here.
The moment is here.
But we are elsewhere.
This inner fragmentation creates tension, even in peaceful surroundings. You can sit in silence and still feel anxious. You can be there without being there. You can rest and still feel restless.
Why?
Because peace is not created by circumstances – it is revealed by presence.
Here's something I borrow from a wise man. I'm not a true Christian, but from time to time I talk to a friend of mine who is a priest. When I met him a while ago, we talked about what had happened to me. I told him that I was struggling to find peace with myself, and then he asked me to think about these sentences from the Bible:
“Do not worry about tomorrow.”
“Today has enough trouble of its own.”
“The Kingdom of God is within you.”
He told me: These are not moral commands. They are descriptions of how reality works.
Jesus understood this deeply. His teachings repeatedly call attention back to now — not as an escape from responsibility, but as a return to reality.
I somehow interpret these sentences in my own way, but yes, they help me start looking for peace elsewhere, as I have sat before, he who is open-minded, has an open heart.
I will return to how these three sentences changed my course in my search for peace in life, at the end of the story.
This claim often meets with resistance:
“In the present moment, there are no problems.”
At first glance, it sounds a bit daunting. But look closely.
A problem requires:
In direct experience — right now — there may be pain, effort, or uncertainty. But the problem itself lives in thought.
This does not mean you ignore responsibilities or deny suffering. It means you stop adding unnecessary psychological suffering to what already is.
When attention rests fully in the present:
That's why peace often arises in the simplest moments – a quiet walk in nature, a deep breath, a break between tasks. Nothing changed externally. Attention simply returned home.
When it comes to being present, to daring to 
be yourself, there is a huge difference between saying:
To use a quote from one of my favorite movies, “The American President” from 1995, where Michael Douglas says that “I AM the President” is a kind of divine moment in the movie. It shows the power of using I AM, both with others, but also with yourself, when you say I AM out loud, your back straightens, your head rises and your shoulders drop, all of this brings increased comfort and peace within.
This is not abstract.
It is a divine reality.
Christian mystics, monks, and contemplatives have known this for centuries. Silence, stillness, and mindfulness were never about emptying the mind for its own sake—they were about making room to meet one's creator as he or her is, here and now.
A lot of people try to achieve peace by correcting their thoughts.
They argue out of fear.
They try to replace negative thoughts with positive ones.
They fight their mind as if it were an enemy.
But this strategy keeps attention locked in the mental layer – where peace does not live.
Peace does not require the mind to be quiet. It requires you to stop believing everything the mind says.
The moment you see a thought as a thought – not as truth – space opens up. In that space, peace reveals itself.
This is the shift from thinking about life to being present with life.
Here is a gentle truth that changes everything:
You cannot be outside the present – even when you think you are.
A memory is emerging now.
A worry is emerging now.
A distraction is emerging now.
Which means that something inside you is always here – and noticing it.
That noticing is awareness.
Awareness does not create panic.
Awareness does not rush.
Awareness does not live in time.
It simply observes.
And when you rest there – even if it's briefly – peace is not created. It is recognized.
A common fear is:
"If I stay present, won't I stop worrying or 
planning?"
The opposite is true.
When attention is focused on the present:
You still plan – but without panic.
You still act – but without fear.
You still trust – without demanding certainty.
Presence does not remove liability.
It removes unnecessary suffering.
You don't need perfect conditions.
Try this, wherever you are:
That is enough.
Each return weakens the illusion that peace is elsewhere.
Peace did not leave you.
Stillness did not disappear.
You were never alone.
Attention wandered – and that's human.
Every moment offers a doorway back.
Therefore, The Silence Within does not promise a quiet mind or a problem-free life. It points to something far more reliable: the awareness beneath the noise, where peace has always awaited.
Not in the future.
Not in understanding everything.
Now.
Yes I did found it, but not where I expect to find it, I needed to be gently push in a different direction, to understand that peace is not to be found outside but inside. The three sentences I was given by my friend the priest, made me start thinking about what true peace meant to me, and that I needed to start letting it come to me from within, instead of continuing to search around for it, that peace is not something you find but something thats happen within.
So again, here are the three sentences I got and how I interpreted and used them:
“Do not worry about tomorrow.” – I can't control what will happen, I can only control how I choose to react. So I stop worrying about what will come and start taking action, taking back control of my future, planning how I want to live, looking at possibilities and opportunities. Using the tools I have in my backpack.
“Today has enough trouble of its own.” – When I wake up each morning, I can start to focus on what my day could be, what I want it to be, what I want to fill it with. I don't know how it will be, but I know, if I do my best to fill it with good things, and think positively about the opportunities the day will bring, that today I will live so that tonight I am glad that I exist.
“The Kingdom of God is within you.” – I realized that it is only within myself that I can find peace, if I choose to listen for it. For me, peace is about forgiving, accepting, letting go of the things I cannot change, stopping worrying about the things I cannot control, and focusing on the things I can control. I cannot go back and change what has happened or what I have done, but I can choose how I will live my life going forward, and what I will fill it with.
So yes, I am at peace with myself. The road here has been a long and difficult journey, but in its own way it is a kind of good journey, a rewarding one. I learned a lot about myself, where I came from, who I had been, who I was and who I want to be. I didn't just find peace, I found myself. I found peace within myself.
So think about this when you're out seeking peace:
Peace is within you, it is there if you choose to listen to it. Accepting it by being present in the moment, you are here now and your beautiful, you are you. Love it.
And to bring peace to others you first need to be at peace within yourself.
With peace and love🕊️❤️ Jørn
I have been through some big changes in my life, I have chosen and choose to be open about what I have been through, sharing my experiences in the hope that it can inspire and help others. I am a positive person with a focus on living healthy, thinking positively, living life by looking forward and letting what lies behind be as educational experiences.
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